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Torment that Lead to Decision Paralysis

Sep 9, 2020marilynlweavloved by the Father, Marlo & Co, Uncategorizedanxiety, decision paralysis, fear, regret, torment, truth

In this decision, there was no right or wrong decision. It’s more like a fork in the road in my life. On one hand, financially it would practically make sense, it would be the more conventional way of doing life. I would have a stable job with benefits and it would be a new career for me. On the other hand, I would be taking the unconventional way in life and it would much riskier financially. I would be doing several different jobs while building my business. I had gone back and forth between doing what is practical or having a flexible schedule. For ever reason I thought I should potentially take the job, I had a reason not to. This lead to increased anxiety about the uncertainty feeling I was experiencing and the fear of making a decision I might regret. Which ultimately leads to decision paralysis.

10. Lessons in the Valley

Feb 28, 2020marilynlweav2 Commentsloved by the Father, Marlo & Co, Uncategorizedanxiety, Christian, Christianity, community, creativity, emotions, fear, Feelings, truth, WORD

As scary and uncertain my future looked that day, I was resting in this unshakable peace. I was leaving my job without a plan not knowing what was going to be next.

As I look at these last nine months, I see the lessons that God had for me in this valley:

3. Fear and Anxiety

May 27, 2019marilynlweavloved by the Father, Uncategorizedanxiety, Christianity, fear, Feelings, peace, photography, stability, Trust, truth, WORD

That Wednesday morning at work, I was feeling anxious to the point it was the closest thing I ever felt to anxiety attack. My muscles in my back tensed up and the tension lasted for days.

These questions kept coming up in my mind.

Enough

Mar 23, 2019marilynlweavloved by the Father, UncategorizedChristian, Christianity, dreams, entrepreneur, entrepreneurship, Father, fear, Feelings, God, peace, photographer, photography, purpose, social work, storytelling, truth, uncertainty, unknown, visual storytelling, WORD

But through this all I still struggled with myself and the direction that God has called me to. I struggled with myself because I love my career in social work and the community I work in. And I love visual storytelling and photography especially with elderly. There was this tension between the two because I felt that if I leave social work I am leaving a career that I have built and love for over 10 years. And I was letting myself and others around me down by leaving social work. But I knew that if I did not see where my business might go that I was going to regret that and I could not live with that.

Complacency and Indecision

Apr 4, 2017marilynlweavloved by the Father, Uncategorizedcalling, complacency, fear, indecision, purpose

Complacency and indecision is something that can paralyze you. It puts you in a prison in your own life. There are many reasons as to why a person may be complacent or do not want to make a decision. One of the main reasons is fear. Fear can hold you back in life. Sometimes this fear is…