anxiety

Torment that Lead to Decision Paralysis

Sep 9, 2020marilynlweavloved by the Father, Marlo & Co, Uncategorizedanxiety, decision paralysis, fear, regret, torment, truth

In this decision, there was no right or wrong decision. It’s more like a fork in the road in my life. On one hand, financially it would practically make sense, it would be the more conventional way of doing life. I would have a stable job with benefits and it would be a new career for me. On the other hand, I would be taking the unconventional way in life and it would much riskier financially. I would be doing several different jobs while building my business. I had gone back and forth between doing what is practical or having a flexible schedule. For ever reason I thought I should potentially take the job, I had a reason not to. This lead to increased anxiety about the uncertainty feeling I was experiencing and the fear of making a decision I might regret. Which ultimately leads to decision paralysis.

10. Lessons in the Valley

Feb 28, 2020marilynlweav2 Commentsloved by the Father, Marlo & Co, Uncategorizedanxiety, Christian, Christianity, community, creativity, emotions, fear, Feelings, truth, WORD

As scary and uncertain my future looked that day, I was resting in this unshakable peace. I was leaving my job without a plan not knowing what was going to be next.

As I look at these last nine months, I see the lessons that God had for me in this valley:

The Hamster Wheel of Busyness

Nov 25, 2019marilynlweavMarlo & Co, Uncategorized#marloandcompany #lancasterphotographer #chestercountyphotographer #lancasterfamilyphotographer #familyphotography #lancasterportraitphotographer #storyteller #photographer #lancasterpa #westchesterfa, anxiety, Chester county portrait photographer, Christian, Christianity, Lancaster County PA, lancaster portrait photographer, loved by the Father, photography, relationships

We have been fed this lie that being busy is a good thing. I think as a society we have become addicted to being busy. We think we have to be busy all the time. It is to the point when someone asks us “How are you doing?” A common response has been “busy.” When…

8. When Waiting Gets Tiring…

Aug 30, 2019marilynlweav1 Commentloved by the Father, Marlo & Co, Uncategorizedanxiety, Christian, Christianity, community, doubts, emotions, Feelings, God's timing, peace, questions, rest, sovereignty, stress, tired, Trust, truth, waiting, worry

And as I heard those words tears started to come to my eyes. I realized at that moment the waiting in this season was being to wear on me. And that even though I trust God and His timing for my life, I realized in that moment I was starting to doubt.

7. Rest

Aug 10, 2019marilynlweavloved by the Father, Marlo & Co, Uncategorizedanxiety, burnout, Christian, Christianity, community, Feelings, FRIENDSHIP, God, Jesus, joy, love, peace, purpose, relationships, rest, seasons

At the beginning of this year, the words God gave me for this year was rest and trust. In January, I had no idea how that would how literally this would play out in my life this year. And honestly when God gave me these words I did not understand why He gave them to me.

3. Fear and Anxiety

May 27, 2019marilynlweavloved by the Father, Uncategorizedanxiety, Christianity, fear, Feelings, peace, photography, stability, Trust, truth, WORD

That Wednesday morning at work, I was feeling anxious to the point it was the closest thing I ever felt to anxiety attack. My muscles in my back tensed up and the tension lasted for days.

These questions kept coming up in my mind.

1. My wake up call

May 9, 2019marilynlweav2 Commentsloved by the Father, Uncategorizedanxiety, burnout, Christian, Christianity, depression, Feelings, God, relationship, social work

It ended with a day where it seemed like everything fell apart. I cried so much that day that I did not think it was possible for me to have that many tears in my eyes and that there would be tears left in my tear ducts. I remember feeling so broken. I ended up leaving work early that day.

Certainty in Uncertainty

Dec 27, 2018marilynlweav1 Commentloved by the Father, Uncategorizedanxiety, certainty, Christianity, Father, Feelings, Hebrews 13:8, peace, Phillippians 4:6-7, truth, uncertainty, worry

“Worry is like a rocking chair – it gives you something to do, but it doesn’t get you anywhere.” ― Dorothy Galyean