Feelings

Pivot

Aug 3, 2020marilynlweavloved by the Father, Marlo & Co, Uncategorizeddreams, Feelings, lost, photography, pivot

And when she asked me, I realized at that moment something was missing for me. This something that I was missing is part of who I am.

10. Lessons in the Valley

Feb 28, 2020marilynlweav2 Commentsloved by the Father, Marlo & Co, Uncategorizedanxiety, Christian, Christianity, community, creativity, emotions, fear, Feelings, truth, WORD

As scary and uncertain my future looked that day, I was resting in this unshakable peace. I was leaving my job without a plan not knowing what was going to be next.

As I look at these last nine months, I see the lessons that God had for me in this valley:

9. Trying to Hide my Brokenness

Jan 2, 2020marilynlweav1 Commentloved by the Father, Uncategorizedburnout, Chester county portrait photographer, Christianity, Feelings, Finger lakes NY, Geneva Lake, Hershey portrait photographer, lancaster portrait photographer, Marlo & Co, photography, social work, storytelling, stress

While I was in it, especially in the last year, I knew life was hard but I thought I was dealing with it ok. If you had asked me, “how are you doing?” I would have probably say “ok” or “good” and I truly believed that. The funny thing I thought I was carrying it well and that I was fooling the people around me.

8. When Waiting Gets Tiring…

Aug 30, 2019marilynlweav1 Commentloved by the Father, Marlo & Co, Uncategorizedanxiety, Christian, Christianity, community, doubts, emotions, Feelings, God's timing, peace, questions, rest, sovereignty, stress, tired, Trust, truth, waiting, worry

And as I heard those words tears started to come to my eyes. I realized at that moment the waiting in this season was being to wear on me. And that even though I trust God and His timing for my life, I realized in that moment I was starting to doubt.

7. Rest

Aug 10, 2019marilynlweavloved by the Father, Marlo & Co, Uncategorizedanxiety, burnout, Christian, Christianity, community, Feelings, FRIENDSHIP, God, Jesus, joy, love, peace, purpose, relationships, rest, seasons

At the beginning of this year, the words God gave me for this year was rest and trust. In January, I had no idea how that would how literally this would play out in my life this year. And honestly when God gave me these words I did not understand why He gave them to me.

Emotions & God’s truth

Jun 26, 2019marilynlweav2 Commentsloved by the Father, UncategorizedChristianity, death, emotions, Feelings, hurt, King, loss, love, pain, truth, waymaker, WORD

Tonight at church I had a hard time singing these lyrics to this song as I was processing my friend’s death. All a sudden I could not sing these words because I started to question why God did not heal my friend.

6. Broken

Jun 13, 2019marilynlweavloved by the Father, Uncategorizedbroken, brokenness, Christianity, empty, Feelings, Isaiah 43:2, peace, psalms 147:3, puzzle, relationship with God, surrender, tired, Trust, truth, uncertainty, WORD, Words

Like there wasn’t anything that could take all my broken pieces that I felt that day and make sense of them let alone put that back together. I felt like glass that was shattered into a million shards of glass. I wasn’t sure what to do with my brokenness that day.

5. Joy and Excitement

Jun 9, 2019marilynlweavUncategorizedChristianity, excitement, Father, Feelings, God, God's plan, joy, Lancaster County PA, loved by the Father, photography, social work, sunset, Trust, truth, uncertainty

My feelings in the last year, I think for the most part have been nonexistent/numb to keep status quo or there has been sadness as I process things that had happened or that were going on inside of me. Don’t get me wrong, I have had moments of joy and when they happen I try to take note of them.

4. “I’m tired.”

Jun 3, 2019marilynlweav2 Commentsloved by the Father, UncategorizedChristian, Christianity, depression, dreams, Feelings, love, peace, relationship, sadness, social work, tired, truth, WORD

My job was to empower them through these moments, show them hope in the hopeless situations and provide resources for them to move forward in life.

While I was doing helping others dream for themselves, inside over time I had quit dreaming. I had allowed life to stifle my creativity. I had allowed my own exhaustion to take over when I had down time.

3. Fear and Anxiety

May 27, 2019marilynlweavloved by the Father, Uncategorizedanxiety, Christianity, fear, Feelings, peace, photography, stability, Trust, truth, WORD

That Wednesday morning at work, I was feeling anxious to the point it was the closest thing I ever felt to anxiety attack. My muscles in my back tensed up and the tension lasted for days.

These questions kept coming up in my mind.